Sounds So Dramatic.

Goodbye Cruel World from "The Wall"

I thought to name this post "Goodbye Cruel World," but then I thought, What if people think I'm suicidal?! (I'm not, by the way. I still love Jesus and life.)

Long post made short: I've attempted to blog since I was in high school and somehow my mouth and fingers have always caused trouble.

I'm going to go back and print some of my favorite posts, especially this one. Then, I'll be done. No more blogging for me. I have a journal and a God who hears in secret. Blogging is too public, and I'm too open.

Meh. Perhaps when I'm old, I'll write an autobiography. Someone can publish it postmortem. No one can fuss if you're dead. It's disrespectful.
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As I've been printing past posts, I've realized that's going to waste a lot of trees. I won't be blogging, but neither will I delete this blog.

I got scared.

The week before Mother's Day my blog was linked by Emily at Redeemed Reader. The blog held a contest, Moms with Blogs, and I mentioned Diaper Diaries and my blog got listed, as well.

Wow, that was an incredibly long sentence.

It scared me. Silly, though it may sound, it really scared me. I thought, Oh no. Blogging for my audience of three is fine. I don't know that I actually want other people, people I don't know, reading this. What if it's dumb? What if it's lame and people think ugly things about me? What if I write something heretical? (From whence that last question came, I have no clue.)

I told my hubby, and he was excited about my blog being mentioned and just smiled when I told him my fears. He said that if I am really determined to blog consistently and for a wider audience, perhaps we'll look into getting my own domain name. What?!

I'm all confused. I have no idea what to do. Currently, I blog so sporadically, and there are already plenty of SAHM bloggers who love Jesus. Who wants another one?

Meh. I'm being cynical. I just need to pray and trust the Lord to tell us what to do. "Trust and obey, for there's no other way..."

A Non-Mommyhood Post

Two things:
1. I just figured out how to manage my comments, so I just saw that I had 6. I didn't realize anyone read my blog, much less wrote anything on it. Woohoo!

2. I didn't realize how huge of a deal it is that I'm even a Christian. God picked the Jewish people to be a light for the rest of the world. However, only when Jesus came and shook things up, was God's heart for the rest of the nations revealed.

Gentiles are non-Jews. I'm not a Jew; therefore, I'm a Gentile. However, the Bible says this...

"When you read this, you can perceive my insight into the mystery of Christ, which was not made known to the sons of men in other generations as it has now been revealed to his holy apostles and prophets by the Spirit. This mystery is that the Gentiles are fellow heirs, members of the same body, and partakers of the promise in Christ Jesus through the gospel."
(Ephesians 3:4-6 ESV)


Another "Woohoo!"

Be not rash with your mouth, Mrs. Erven.

I'm trying my hand at blogging once more. I blogged in high school, college, and a little after I got married. However, I always ran into a problem: "when words are many, transgression is not lacking." (Proverb 10:19) I talk too much. I write too much. Sin sits nearby ready to leap into my conversations and soliloquies.

God has sanctified me greatly in this area. I've been humbled more times than I care to recall. I've learned three things: I need to listen far more than I speak or write. I need to ask questions. I need to let God have reign over my mouth.

I want this blog to glorify the Lord. "Everything is an affair of the spirit. If eating and drinking can be done 'to the glory of God,' so can everything else." (Elisabeth Elliot) I include blogging under the heading of "everything." Therefore, I plan to use this blog to update the world on my little life--homemaking; loving my hubby, my soon-to-arrive Baby Caleb, and our puppies; discipling other women, and growing in godliness slowly but surely.

This may seem cheesy to some, but I want to end this first post with prayer.

Father in heaven, I'm giving this little blog to you. Words can do much damage and words can build others up. I want only to glorify you and edify my few readers. Keep my fingers from typing anything that would dishonor You or anyone else. Each time I post remind me of King Solomon's wisdom, "Be not rash with your mouth, nor let your heart be hasty to utter a word before God, for God is in heaven, and you are on earth. Therefore let your words be few." In the precious, necessary Name of Jesus, Amen.

you are on earth. Therefore let your words be few.