All of Life is Repentance

I think that's from Martin Luther, but who knows?

Caleb, 1 day old

Caleb wasn't tired the other night. He wasn't tired when I wanted him to be. It's amazing how much sin comes out when I'm tired. I was frustrated and angry and seriously thought, "There's no way I can keep doing this." I felt like I was mean to my little man. Although, nothing was outward. I didn't hurt him or say ugly words. I just felt anger in my heart.

I went to bed. My hubby took over. The next morning, I fed Caleb and cried. I apologized to him for my heart's sin and repented before the Lord. It's frustrating, still, because I know I'll probably have to repent again. My heart isn't clean, and I'll not always be loving and kind and patient. I'll especially struggle when I'm tired.

All that said: Jesus loves me. He won't forsake me. He'll keep my deceptive heart as I abide in Him. I'm so thankful that He remains faithful even when I'm unfaithful.

"[Jesus said,] Already you are clean because of the word that I have spoken to you. Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit by itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in me. I am the vine; you are the branches. Whoever abides in me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing."

(John 15:3-5 ESV)